Lately, I have been trying to focus on just getting ideas out there. Whether it’s contrived, overdone, hackneyed, or just dull, the idea is still in my mind needing to get out.
Usually, I make excuses for myself. I don’t have enough time, there’s too much work to do, I should really get some sleep. These are all phrases that come to mind when motivation sets in. Instead of going with the motivation I run away from it – wearing a mask so to speak.
If I hide long enough from motivation, it will no longer haunt me. It will no longer move me to do what it is I really want to do.
That brings me to a very interesting question. Why do I hide from motivation? Is it that I am lazy (and sometimes proudly so), or is it that if I put myself out there that I have a greater chance to be ridiculed for my work. Am I so scared of my work being criticized that I would risk not making it? Seems rather silly, yet here I am. A 38 year old man trying to find his voice.
I think I got my voice back. Now I just have to push myself.