Usually, I make excuses for myself. I don’t have enough time, there’s too much work to do, I should really get some sleep. These are all phrases that come to mind when motivation sets in. Instead of going with the motivation I run away from it – wearing a mask so to speak.
If I hide long enough from motivation, it will no longer haunt me. It will no longer move me to do what it is I really want to do.
That brings me to a very interesting question. Why do I hide from motivation? Is it that I am lazy (and sometimes proudly so), or is it that if I put myself out there that I have a greater chance to be ridiculed for my work. Am I so scared of my work being criticized that I would risk not making it? Seems rather silly, yet here I am. A 38 year old man trying to find his voice.
I think I got my voice back. Now I just have to push myself.